Even though I’m content,
I sometimes look around me and feel insecure.
It’s so silly really,
how my heart jumps to embrace
greed, jealousy and discontentment.
I suppose that’s part of my human nature
that I fight everyday, but
I’m not alone in that fight. Thankfully!
It’s the Helper who walks me through it.
Kindly reminding me that there’s a better way.
I mean, I’ve tried before- attempting to feel secure
about myself and my life. On my own.
That didn’t work out. It was so hard
and I’d get so emotional and angry with myself
when I found I was back at square one.
But these days, I’m so much more hopeful.
The loneliness of striving
from a place of emptiness is awful.
I’ve learnt that now. Being back at square one
isn’t so disappointing anymore.